I have mixed emotions about seeing all of the tweets about FitBloggin. On one hand, I'm getting such a kick out of seeing Tara's "Hi!" videos, seeing people I only know from their blogs and twitter together in one place. On the other hand, I see how far so many of them have come in this last year, and I know I haven't. This depresses me a bit. Plus, I'd love to be there with everyone, so that depresses me too.
I had my weigh in the other night. Weight was pretty much the same, measurements were pretty much the same... (though my thighs were less, which pleases me to no end) Everything is pretty much just that. The same. I've been losing and gaining the same 5 pounds for over a year. I'm working out plenty, so that leaves my eating. What is my deal? Why am I letting myself get away with this. I'm eating (fairly) healthy food, with a some indulges, but still eating too much of it. Tracking has been difficult for me too.
What am I afraid of? Why am I letting my comfort for the familiar get in the way of doing what I know, at least intellectually, is the right thing for me to do? How do I get the part of me that wants to succeed to push to the front of my brain and get things accomplished?